Ramble: Despite myself.

Im writing this because it’s 3 o’clock in the morning and sleep feels like the wrong thing to do.
Im writing this because I can’t force myself to the floor and thank God for all that he has blessed me with.
I writing this because I don’t thank God as much as I should, and would rather take all the credit, but I can’t. Its time that I face facts and believe whole heartedly that there is something greater than me (I know, I have a hard time accepting that too.)
I’m only human.
I know that in the past few months I’ve lost so much of myself.
I rediscovered the imagination,
But there is no time for that today.
I have overdue library books.
I wish I could bury myself in the pages of a masterpiece,
I wish I could write one,
I know my life is one.
I dreamed it was
Lavish
Sorrow filled
Messy
Masterpiece
My eyes are heavy but I can’t sleep.
I feel like I need to shout at the top of my lungs
And dance until the soles of my feet are raw
And it’s still not enough.
Friendship
Family
Love
Even when I don’t want it,
When I refuse to understand it
Me
Despite myself
Breathing
Conscious
Able…

Becasue its necessary,

KD