In the good book of Jill, The Real Thing: Words and Sounds Vol. 3 on a track called “I Just Wanna Be Loved” she states:
Don’t feel no pity for me,
Cause Im going through a couple things,
Life means change,
That’s the way it goes…
AMEN!
That’s pretty much my life right now. A mess of change and misdirection, I never thought that I would be in this place, but I am, and its sucks.
So first off due to financial reasons that are out of my control I did not return to school this semester. Major Bummer!
I wrote every member of my school administration a heart felt letter explaining my situation and I got no response. Bitches!
I have to find a full time job and new friends. BULLSHIT!
I might have to transfer to Del State during my senior year. What the Fuck?
I found out how many people truly care about me and my success in the future. Almost a tear.
I found out that I really care about people. Real Tears.
Now Im in this weird transition period, I really don’t know my place at home when the seasons change.
and the mood swings as well the tempo, and Im still here.
I won’t lie. The first few days were hella difficult. the phone full of txt messages asking “Where are you?”. Me not knowing how to respond and not be embarrassed that Im broke. “I’m in Canada.” It was a bad lie, but I really want to go to Canada. Its only 6 hours away. So is my school. Stuck in the middle. Ha! If I were a slave I would love to run to Canada, yet my soul is calling me back south, and Delaware is the mid point. How times have changed.
Any who, my job search is going well. It took me 3 days to figure out how to write this. It only took a hurricane.
Im reading my first self-help book. Its named something like “Self-discipline in 10 days”. Because you know I have no self control.
But you know what really sucks about being home. All my back at school “friends” (you know cut-buddies have been blowing my phone up! Talk about sexual frustration, and I don’t even have the never to tell them that Im not even in the state.
Can I help you?,
KD
Don’t feel no pity for me,
Cause Im going through a couple things,
Life means change,
That’s the way it goes…
AMEN!
That’s pretty much my life right now. A mess of change and misdirection, I never thought that I would be in this place, but I am, and its sucks.
So first off due to financial reasons that are out of my control I did not return to school this semester. Major Bummer!
I wrote every member of my school administration a heart felt letter explaining my situation and I got no response. Bitches!
I have to find a full time job and new friends. BULLSHIT!
I might have to transfer to Del State during my senior year. What the Fuck?
I found out how many people truly care about me and my success in the future. Almost a tear.
I found out that I really care about people. Real Tears.
Now Im in this weird transition period, I really don’t know my place at home when the seasons change.
and the mood swings as well the tempo, and Im still here.
I won’t lie. The first few days were hella difficult. the phone full of txt messages asking “Where are you?”. Me not knowing how to respond and not be embarrassed that Im broke. “I’m in Canada.” It was a bad lie, but I really want to go to Canada. Its only 6 hours away. So is my school. Stuck in the middle. Ha! If I were a slave I would love to run to Canada, yet my soul is calling me back south, and Delaware is the mid point. How times have changed.
Any who, my job search is going well. It took me 3 days to figure out how to write this. It only took a hurricane.
Im reading my first self-help book. Its named something like “Self-discipline in 10 days”. Because you know I have no self control.
But you know what really sucks about being home. All my back at school “friends” (you know cut-buddies have been blowing my phone up! Talk about sexual frustration, and I don’t even have the never to tell them that Im not even in the state.
Can I help you?,
KD
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