Living on the edge...

Some days I just have the energy to write until my fingers cramp. I think that this is one of those days. It sure beats studying for my American lit exam…

I was one of those kids that swore they knew everything. I had a more Independence than most of my peers and that just automatically made me an expert on everything, even though I had never left the state (I’ve traveled lightly since then). I would tell you up and down the things that I would and would not do and swear that the way we did things in my home town is the only way. I know now that they way we do things where I’m from isn’t the only way…just 8/10 it’s the best way!

YES I REPRESENT DELAWARE!

If I could introduce my then to my now. How much they would disagree and marvel about how much they are alike. How much experience has shaped and molded me into this. Whatever simple and complex set of adjectives I would use to describe me. So, I read this note on dreaded facebook that was written by a freshman at my school. (Facebook was created by Satan; I don’t care what you say) And like me, she resided in Delaware but the slower lower part. I was angered me. She is constantly credited with being real and out spoken when in reality she knows nothing about nothing. It shows. I guess the blind really do lead the blind.

And this is not about putting down this young lady because I think she is extremely smart and has a lot of potential, but like that younger version of myself is stuck in the one way of thinking. She wants so easily to label things and but them in a place that works for her. Small minded, I know.

This could be about people being seduced by charm and a few big words. Words are powerful even seductive. Ever had phone-sex? That was a Joke! but this is not about impressionable people. And their following ways!

This is about remembering the person you were and loving who you are now. and the journey from then to now. And how the scars and scrapes have different meanings. But still feel the same.

I just remember when that was me. Opinionated loud and unaware. Inexperienced. Hell, I still am inexperienced, I just now know when its time to shut up and live.

And live is what I’m doing.

Living on the edge or something like that!

Not fearing too much anymore, except love and that’s another post all together!

past, present, future,

KD