Dancing in the rain...

I’ve just noticed how out of touch I can become at any given moment with the emotions of the people around me. It’s not that I mean to. Well, not all of the time. Sometimes its best if I am left alone with my own problems its just best that way, but I do really mean to be there for my friends, my family. Especially in their times of need. Even if I don’t always have the words to comfort or empower, I know how important an nonjudgmental ear can be. I wish I even now that I had words to tell you how sorry I am for my lack of support. I can’t. There are no words. I was wrong, I hope you accept my apology. I want you to know that I admire each of you for the strength that you possess. I wish a sliver of that resided within me. I wish I was brave enough to face each day with a fighting spirit that pushes and allows you to radiate strength in your moments of weakness. I can’t think of of how to encourage the people that encourage me. I wish I had some scriptures that I could recite to you right now. I don’t. Maybe I should read my bible. Maybe that’s where the answer to all our problems is. I’m not brave enough to look. Afraid of what I might find. What If I gave you a mirror and told you to look your self in the eyes and see how great of a person you are. Force you to see yourself as I do. Brilliant. Beautiful. Battered. Bruised. Smiling. Perfectly Damaged. Perfection. Maybe I should look in a mirror. Validation might be healthy at this moment. That’s probably all you needed in the first place. A shoulder to comfort and understand. To wrap you tightly and pat you to sleep to let you know your not alone it the world. And your not. Not as long as I live. Even when I’m not in arms reach. So, dance in the rain. let the rain hide your tears. Scream with thunder. Let lighting share you frustration. Dance like no ones watching. Splash. and run. and sing.and cry. and remember. and forget. and I’ll be there with you. This time will be different we will share the dance and comfort one another and it will not be in vain, but a mutual feeling of love and respect. I take that back. Just watch me dance in the rain. and I’ll dance until my feet refuse to hold me anymore. and you. and I. and we will be alright.

Escaping the rain and dodging phenomia,


KD